Aku ingin menyampaikan sesuatu yang selama ini telah membantuku merasa sangat bahagia satu tahun ini. Satu tahun yang kupikir sebelumnya akan sangat berat untuk dilewati. Satu tahun yang membayangkan saja aku ngeri. Satu tahun setelah kita kehilangan orang yang pernah berada di separuh hatimu. Aku tidak bermaksud mengenang masa lalu dan mengabaikan bagaimana perasaan pasanganku sekarang jika membaca ini.
Aku malah ingin berterimakasih pada dia yang sekarang telah membantuku melewati semua ini.
Aku ingin menulis untuk salah satu sahabat terbaikku yang mungkin sedang mengalami saat terberat yang pernah kualami. Ini bukan tulisan melankolik seperti yang kamu harapkan, tapi akan terlihat cengeng sekaligus arogan di beberapa tempat.
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Dear you my girl, i don't know how should i start to tell you about this. I mean if i said that i lost my half heart one year ago, maybe you'll say that you lost your full heart some months ago. Love is all about giving all the best for someone you think really special at the time that we hope to be eternal flame. The best is the best for us who has been giving so much effort to make it work. But whe should realize at the very end, the ammount for the best sometimes pretty blur at all. We said it's all my best, but for him that's nothing, not enough and there are so much better than we gave. He could gave us much more better effort and sure he ask the worth pay with his own standard.
Actually that's not a big problem if the communication works well. But sometimes how much you say that you love him, there still a big wall stand up beyond you and him. There are so much points that you force to fit on him. Then you're getting too bussy ignoring and merging your differences because both of you had already said that you accept and love him just the way he is. But how long it would last for "just the way you are?" One year, two years, three years, four years? Waiting the time bomb to explode. And you forgot to enjoy the togetherness itself, with all kind the differences still exist. That's love who let both of you live with your own characters, no need too much change to love each other.
You have so much pain, so has your boyfriend. When you feel so tired you have to recognize that the love is disappear right now. There should be no tired in loving! And both of you pushing it so hard to add just one more time, one more year, one more chance to find that miracle. You said it miracle, because now you understand how hard it is to reunite the broken glass. What are you looking for right now? The existence of relationship?
Let it go.. I know you've been trying so hard, giving all the best, so has him.
It's the time when you have to find the answer by yourself. Could you let someone you love go when he said you hurt him? When he ask you just go away and leave him alone? When he tell you there's someone better than you right now? When he tell you that you make him feel so tired? When he give up on everything that you've been pushing together?
Girl, hold up your head high. We're too young for being too sad and feel sorry too deep on this life. And we never really know what is love so clear. But when you're trying to understand your own heart, it's you who could free all his pain.
There are so much ways to make yourself stronger right now, after a half your heart went away. I think every girl knows well how to wipe the grey away. Let yourself get the joy and the optimism, see even your fingers are beautiful. Do your hobbies with your beautiful fingers, now it's completely yours. Those fingers that you used to get the scar tissues before. Well, there are will be some stage of sadness who come and go anytime they want. They'll ruin your mood easily, bring you back to some sweet memories that hurt your heart. And you cry again and again, make you swear this is the last cry, but it won't.
Then you keep wondering how could someone go to another heart easily. You curse at them, say that they are ignorant and heartless people. Hey honey, i'm one of them. I let someone come in to my heart again too fast, too early, that's what i thought before. Maybe God love me as well, or maybe He tests my patience in waiting The Mr. Right. But, when you're in my position you'll understand this is your affirmation of your own said a long long time ago. "Maybe we have to meet the wrong person before we meet the right person".
I'm just so happy right now that i could let everything flow with my Trust in God. I'm not find the better person, but i've just found someone who fit me more. We have so much differences in taste and thought, but we hate the same things. We are not good people at all, do so much stupid things but we try find the way to get better, together. Not trying to change each other to be what we want, but listen more, learn more, don't agree more, understand more.
You, just don't get too sad, let yourself happy. Let someone out there find your bright shines, let him find your unique character, you specific personality and try to do the same things on him.
Then the last thing, Why in hurry? we're just too young..
#Soundtrack: Bruno Mars - When i was your man, Hoobastank - The Reason, Billy Joel - Just The Way You Are
Aku malah ingin berterimakasih pada dia yang sekarang telah membantuku melewati semua ini.
Aku ingin menulis untuk salah satu sahabat terbaikku yang mungkin sedang mengalami saat terberat yang pernah kualami. Ini bukan tulisan melankolik seperti yang kamu harapkan, tapi akan terlihat cengeng sekaligus arogan di beberapa tempat.
.................
Dear you my girl, i don't know how should i start to tell you about this. I mean if i said that i lost my half heart one year ago, maybe you'll say that you lost your full heart some months ago. Love is all about giving all the best for someone you think really special at the time that we hope to be eternal flame. The best is the best for us who has been giving so much effort to make it work. But whe should realize at the very end, the ammount for the best sometimes pretty blur at all. We said it's all my best, but for him that's nothing, not enough and there are so much better than we gave. He could gave us much more better effort and sure he ask the worth pay with his own standard.
Actually that's not a big problem if the communication works well. But sometimes how much you say that you love him, there still a big wall stand up beyond you and him. There are so much points that you force to fit on him. Then you're getting too bussy ignoring and merging your differences because both of you had already said that you accept and love him just the way he is. But how long it would last for "just the way you are?" One year, two years, three years, four years? Waiting the time bomb to explode. And you forgot to enjoy the togetherness itself, with all kind the differences still exist. That's love who let both of you live with your own characters, no need too much change to love each other.
You have so much pain, so has your boyfriend. When you feel so tired you have to recognize that the love is disappear right now. There should be no tired in loving! And both of you pushing it so hard to add just one more time, one more year, one more chance to find that miracle. You said it miracle, because now you understand how hard it is to reunite the broken glass. What are you looking for right now? The existence of relationship?
Let it go.. I know you've been trying so hard, giving all the best, so has him.
It's the time when you have to find the answer by yourself. Could you let someone you love go when he said you hurt him? When he ask you just go away and leave him alone? When he tell you there's someone better than you right now? When he tell you that you make him feel so tired? When he give up on everything that you've been pushing together?
Girl, hold up your head high. We're too young for being too sad and feel sorry too deep on this life. And we never really know what is love so clear. But when you're trying to understand your own heart, it's you who could free all his pain.
There are so much ways to make yourself stronger right now, after a half your heart went away. I think every girl knows well how to wipe the grey away. Let yourself get the joy and the optimism, see even your fingers are beautiful. Do your hobbies with your beautiful fingers, now it's completely yours. Those fingers that you used to get the scar tissues before. Well, there are will be some stage of sadness who come and go anytime they want. They'll ruin your mood easily, bring you back to some sweet memories that hurt your heart. And you cry again and again, make you swear this is the last cry, but it won't.
Then you keep wondering how could someone go to another heart easily. You curse at them, say that they are ignorant and heartless people. Hey honey, i'm one of them. I let someone come in to my heart again too fast, too early, that's what i thought before. Maybe God love me as well, or maybe He tests my patience in waiting The Mr. Right. But, when you're in my position you'll understand this is your affirmation of your own said a long long time ago. "Maybe we have to meet the wrong person before we meet the right person".
I'm just so happy right now that i could let everything flow with my Trust in God. I'm not find the better person, but i've just found someone who fit me more. We have so much differences in taste and thought, but we hate the same things. We are not good people at all, do so much stupid things but we try find the way to get better, together. Not trying to change each other to be what we want, but listen more, learn more, don't agree more, understand more.
You, just don't get too sad, let yourself happy. Let someone out there find your bright shines, let him find your unique character, you specific personality and try to do the same things on him.
Then the last thing, Why in hurry? we're just too young..
#Soundtrack: Bruno Mars - When i was your man, Hoobastank - The Reason, Billy Joel - Just The Way You Are
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